R. A. Melos Uncensored

Do you really think I find you interesting enough to talk with? I'm just being polite because we work together and I have to pretend to be a caring co-worker. But if you fall down an open elevator shaft I'll put in a bit for you cubicle. I will fight for the corner office space. I am mercenary. I am corporate America. But now it's Friday. The work week is over. To the bat poles! It's time to rock the long weekend and kick the butt of summer wannabe. Tuesday we will be back in the corporate hell from which we flee, forced to kiss up to the evil overlords of the cubicle farm.

 

Disgruntled much? Hell yes!

To the guys who think they are so hot that everyone wants them. You're not, and I don't.

I'm planning on being super successful in life. I've been planning on that since birth, or at least since the second grade. I need the breaks I planned for, but don't seem to be getting them. I'm tired of constantly struggling for some elusive success, so now I simply expect it. The power of the law of attraction. I expect lottery wins, a writing career, and masdive amounts of money to flood into my life. Okay universe, bring it on.

"The way I look at it is that anything, basically, that a woman can do, a guy can do."
MIGUEL ALQUICIRA, on becoming a dental assistant, when more than 90 percent of those in the field are women. -- NY Times

Didn't we learn anything from the past?

Dharun Ravi was not on trial for the death of Tyler Clementi or for contributing to the death of Clementi. He was on trial for infringing on the privacy of a sensitive young man who was at a vulnerable point in his life and was confronted with the insensitivity of the world.

 

He was on trial for tampering with evidence and lying. He was judged fairly for those crimes by the courts, but now he will be judged by the public for his crimes of insensitivity toward his fellow human being. The sad thing is, most of those sitting in judgment are hypocrits and should not cast the first stone.

 

He is an insensitive person, but little different from the majority of human beings. He doesn't understand what he did wrong because his generation has a different set of moral values than older generations. Also the immediate social morals he was raised with are different from many hypocrits out there who would watch those videoes with salacious delight until they were videoes of themselves.

 

Not everyone in the same position would've taken their own life, but we can never be sure how someone will react to a negative situation. His real crime is insensitivity toward his fellow human being, and of that the majority of society is guilty.

QUOTATION OF THE DAY
"Facebook was not just an I.P.O. It was supposed to be something that would excite the retail investor. But that didn't happen."
JAMES A. BIANCO, president of a research and trading firm, on the anemic trading of shares in the company as it made its market debut. -- NY Times

I just need for life to be simple and easy without stress. I really can't, no, won't accept any more stresz in my life. I refuse any more stress.

So tonight I hooked up with a guy on Manhunt. Manhunt is a hook up site that reminds me of "the circuit" in Logan's Run. You put yourself on there to feel good, only it doesn't work.

 

The nut case I hooked up with tonight was more interested in my yard than me. He was more interested in my money than me. He was more interested in everything else than me.

 

No, we did not have sex. He talked about the plants in my yard. He's a grad student studying horticulture. No, I am not going to see him again. I'm done with loons. I'm done with website hook ups. I'm done.

 

From now on I'll watch porn like a normal guy and go to bed immediately afterward so I don't have to deal with any more fucking freaks. I'll read books, and spend my time in pursuit of bettering myself and the world. I'm finished with trying to find a life partner or sex partner or any partner. Relationships are way too much. DVDs can replace relationships. Books can replace relationships and interaction with my fellow man. Everything in its time and space. I am so done with my fellow human beings.

So I bumped into an interesting stranger in B&N yesterday. We talked and I found out she was a clinical psychologist. As we talked I mentioned several of my friends as of late find me to be very negative. She suggested perhaps my friends bring out the negativity in me, like psychic vampires, there is something in them, an energy, that draws out the negativity. She asked me if they find negativity in others as well, but I don't know. Oh well.

There are some things in life, some experiences, that will stick with you forever. For me this day will always be a reminder of my maternal greandmother. You see 27 years ago today I came home from a class I was taking at a county college and found my grandmother dead on my bed. She was going to watch my tv, which was big for its time 26", and had either a massive stroke or heart attack. I remeber the shock I felt finding her dead, the fear, calling for an ambulance, this was before 911, calling my mother and father at their jobs and then waiting for what seemed like forever if only five minutes for a rescue squad. It was a week before I turned 21. I can remember the day very clearly. In spite of all the issues I may have with those who are gone before, I still miss them.